April 2011
I hate feeling like this.
The Sparks are still flying.
It finally feels like everything has fallen back...
And all it took was you :)
I feel so dumb right now.
For a really bad reason.
I'm done holding back.
Under the canopy.
Crashing to the surface.
My convictions lay before the tempest.
As chaos explodes around me, I find myself in the jaws of destruction.
Tested by the force of the tempest.
Pushed, to the point of no return.
Losing ground.
Let the steel of my resolve be not bested by the sum of my fears.
clarity unfolds, a moment’s calm in the eye of the storm.
Relentless I surge onward.
Surfacing....
I'm sorry.
For appreciating the qualities and techniques of real music. I’m just to hipster for you.
Why does this feeling...
Never fail. :/
You really just genuinely make me happy.
You always know the right things to say. No one but You even makes remotely any sense. I wouldn’t rather have it any other way.
Late night conversations.
Are amazing with you. Not seeing you all day, just reminds me how much I appreciate you being there.
I just wish you could understand me.
I wish you could understand us.
I know you have good intentions, but this is getting ridiculous. I wish you would bother to get to know me first. Don’t assume I’m some rotten kid. Take a little time, go out of your way. I go out of my way every time. Stop looking for an excuse to keep the chains on a little longer. She’s showing you what you want. She is respectful… You...
I just want to climb to the roof of an enormous...
Deep blue.
This ship is sinking.
Deeper and deeper.
Into your own regrets of satisfaction.
No longer can I live a life of no control.
These stories are hanging by a thread, from what was there.
Immunity parishes, vulnerabilities exposed.
Is it one sided, these feelings of drowning in my own hallucinations.
Show some remorse, show some pity.
In a moment I’m lost, taken from the inside.
Her eyes...
Just tbh.
No one cares about you anymore. And we all stopped caring months ago.
I hate.
How strict regulations are on her..
Alone.
Shifting high outlines my battered form.
Stranger to the world, alone in my abandonment.
A gaining army of white horses, stark warning before the icy front.
The deceiving calm betrays all signs of impending change.
Evening tide, what so you hide? Damnation or Salvation?
As my skin breaks the blackened surface, the cold rising, you’re all embracing.
Darkness, erase this lonesome place,...
I am the blackest soul.
The child of a loveless world.
The wreckage left in the wake of time.
I am the consequence of complete collapse.
I am the horror you created.
The mind fuck you instigated.
I am the seed of self-destruction, the bitter taste of reger.
Flood my lungs.
Pull my teeth.
Cross my eyes until there’s nothing left.
Casualities to the snares f modern life.
Anchored by avarice, there is no...
And I know you looked back.
I saw it, and felt it.
They always do, and realize what’s gone.
Woo-whooo
nikkiluu:
Just scheduled freshman orientation with Jordan for UNLV :D
Just come clean.
Your real “friends” will still be there for you.
There you go again.
Me and everyone else are suddenly less important. You’re on a plane ready to crash, but of course I’ll be there waiting to put your parachute on for you.
Then you’ll hit the ground running looking for your next uncontrollable behemoth, and I’ll be left in the dust. yet again.
kthxbai.
You kill the mosquitos, I'll kill the spiders.
<3
They all seem to do the same thing.
Use me when they need or want me. But toss me to the side when they don’t feel I’m necessary. I’m glad I could be there for your convenience.
Thanks mucho to Prescilla Almaraz Arellano for always being there:)
It's nice to know,
I still have those schoolyard crush feelings for her. And knowing that all the little things still matter :).
You've hurt me more in the long run.
More than I ever thought possible.
She definitely knows.
How to just make me happy.
